queendopamine:

I had one of the worst dissociative episodes of my life yesterday. It was scary. I remember panicking. I remember feeling like I was lost, floating, even in disbelief that I existed (sounds more like derealization or depersonalization, though I always get those two confused). But it feels like a foggy memory now. I kept saying to my ex on the phone that I couldn’t believe I was alive in that moment and that everything felt so far away and I felt trapped, listening to the sound of my own voice.

queendopamine:

"Chronic recurrent humiliation", a form of emotional abuse, was found in a study to be 15% more likely to create adverse effects on a child, such as leading to addictions and eating disorders. 

Being called worthless or stupid, being ridiculed for the way you look, being shamed or called out in front of others for something you did or said—these are all examples of emotional abuse. 

Don’t tell yourself your abuse wasn’t “as bad” as someone else’s because you weren’t physically abused or neglected. Emotional abuse is just as severe, and according to this study, is more likely to cause self-destructive behaviors and diseases.

» Feels like a monday! :Embarking a vessel

flipofthefin:

Today is the day I’ll be flying to London to embark Columbine Maersk in Felixstowe. On top of the worst night’s sleep imaginable, I’m really nervous, since this is going to be my first sea practice.

» You know you have DID, when…

youknowyouhavedidwhen:

…you’re asexual, but get physically turned on because your headmates find something arousing.

» You know you have DID when…

youknowyouhavedidwhen:

…you get ridiculously frustrated over the fact that real people aren’t telepathic because you’re so used to conversing in half-formed thoughts and concepts and images and memories rather than actual words.

I’ve lost count of how many times I had a mental conversation with a person, only to realise a week later that I never said those things but only thought them to myself.

» You know you have DID when…

youknowyouhavedidwhen:

….you order the same exact thing every time you go out to eat so you don’t spend twenty minutes arguing over your choice and hold up everyone else’s meal being unable to order. 

» You know you have DID when…

youknowyouhavedidwhen:

…all your cigarettes are gone and you can’t remember smoking.

(submitted anonymously)

Thank god we changed to e-cigarettes.

» You know you have DID when…

youknowyouhavedidwhen:

…you sing duets with yourself.

(submitted anonymously)

turn-loose-the-swans:

"A weekend morning" by snow124

turn-loose-the-swans:

"Soubi’s moving house" by snow124 (Howl’s moving castle crossover)

OH MY GOD. Best cross-over. Ever.